Rebirth / Birthday

I had a birthday on the 28th of September. Yeah me!

Although I am only 48 – it was still an important one.  And now I am wondering, why do we make a big deal about the 10s?  Hmmmm, anyway, I celebrated for about 3 days.  2 days before and then on the actual day.

On the 26th I celebrated with some Reiki pals.  I was a part of a Reiki healing share where we get together and do group healing and eat (of course).  Nice group of people and especially nice was getting to celebrate with my “twin” Mary.  We share the same birth month and day, except she is only 47 this year.  Her girls gave me a very nice card, and a special birthday cupcake – sweet!

No time to knit because I had to scoot over to a new friend’s place to start the 2nd celebration.  Here are some photos from that part:

A special birthday cake for ZenKnit (Susan)

A special birthday cake for ZenKnit (Susan)

Happy but boy do I look tired!

Happy but boy do I look tired!

Sweet!

I guess I am starting to look my age.  But that is very okay.  It is very nice to be what you are.  A nice older woman *grin*.  I can’t really claim to be middle-aged unless I am planning on living to 96. That is a bit of a stretch.  But honestly, every day is a great day.

On my actual birthday I went to work and then had dinner at my mom and dad’s place.  We have a tradition where mom makes our favorite meal.  Mine is swiss steak and vegetables and for dessert, confetti angel cake and ice cream – sweet!

But back to days and time… I have been having a lot of odd dreams about the end of things.  The funny thing is in the latest dream, the sun disappeared and I thought that it would be important to gather up all of my knitting (especially socks) and sock yarn because it was going to be very cold and I didn’t know if I would be back at my home – there was something about trying to decide if I would go to live with my twin Mary (great gardener) or head out for a trek to other places to seek out comfort and strength (newer friend).

And then I woke up.  Although it was kind of a weird dream, it was quite nice in that:

  • I felt safe
  • I had plans
  • There was knitting!

Peace!

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I’ve lost that loving feeling

I have been unfaithful to my knitting. Very unfaithful. I have taken up with my long time love of books. I think it began when I was somewhat forced to go through all of the books in my house in order to decide which were mine, and which are my husband’s. It could also be that I was just kind of bored with knitting – tired of the same old dishcloth, really kind of burnt out with the niceness of it all. I needed some bad boy energy, something more sexy, you know?

So I am reading SciFi again. A tasty 2-book series from Dan Simmons, Ilium and Olympos.

I did spend some time on Ravelry trying to get the love back — looking at lacy shawls, looking at sexy colors and even doing a few rows on the toe of a sock that was begun back in March of 2008(!), and I started a new dishcloth. But there wasn’t enough umph in those feeble attempts to really hook me. So I am back reading, journaling (personal stuff that’s not online), moving boxes of clothes and stuff back and forth within my too crowded house, and trying to figure out a way to keep myself out of trouble. The bottom-line is that I am bored with all of these activities, but not as bored as with the knitting.

Maybe it is just cabin fever, not having enough business, experiencing a break from my corporate job and……

Sigh.

But Spring is coming, the sun has been out, I had a great play date with my dogboy Spencer, and a chance to kick back with friends, meet some new people, catch up on email and some further web site stuff. And today a call from work! I will be back to my corporate job for at least a few weeks. That for sure will keep me out of trouble!

Peace

I have been very busy

I have been very busy and it looks like there will always be more of that for a while.  Good stuff but a lot of change.  I am working a corporate job again.  That is taking a lot of energy as I get used to keeping regular hours.  Usually I am quite the night person – not a paint the town red all night, but the kind of person who goes to bed early in the morning because she doesn’t have to get up until she wants to.

Now I have to force myself to bed because if I don’t I will regret it big time when the alarm goes off at 5:30 a.m. Ouch!  But the commute is pretty clear, and it will be nice having a regular paycheck again.

What I am doing is reading documents and entering bits of information into a database. It isn’t straight data entry. You have to search around to find key information. Kind of like “Where’s Waldo” for nerds. It is strangely fun and nice because the area is as quiet as you would like a library to be. No ringing phones, no people talking much, not a lot of walking aroundygs2008-8a. Peaceful!

I get to cram some knitting time into breaks and lunch, but my production will be very sloooooooow because evenings and weekends are pretty jammed with trying to have my regular Reiki and Tarot and a somewhat regular life too.

But I do have some projects progress to show you.  Here is one of my newest sets:

More later!

Peace

Private

I don’t know about you, but I am always fascinated by the parts of knitting that we don’t usually share. The wrong side, the private side. But then again I search for patterns that don’t have a right or a wrong side – being totally reversible is cool, especially for objects that get used or you just know they are never going to be wrong side down all the time.

Right – wrong – public – private. We have so many back and white kind of words like, you know, black and white. I hate black and white. I love the colors, but I hate the concept of totally one or the other.

Yes, this is about life and knitting. Knitting and life, a life filled with knitting and thinking.

I joke with my students and clients that I would really like to be able to take a vacation from my own head/brain. If I could just turn it off for maybe a weekend. Sure, I can kick back and be different, but the thoughts are usually there in the background…

I wonder why my business isn’t so busy anymore – is that *good* or *bad*? Yes, it is nice to kick back and get a little down time, but having a bit of money doesn’t hurt. I wonder if I should get a *real* job? I wonder it that would be like giving up? What would happen if I took a vacation from my teaching? I wonder if I would be happy with a regular job

On and on, damn that monkey mind – Gah!

I know that when I start getting fussy about things aka life, then it is time for a project break. But to be a good girl, I made sure that most of the finished blankets were really done – all the ends tucked in and such. I have left the blanket of a million ends and the not so evil younger brother waiting till I get back in my groove.

Time for a little me time! Hand towels! Dish cloths! Here we go!!!

First, my cherry moss square hand towel – sized for a person who doesn’t have huge hands (that is what I am saying out loud but in my head=didn’t have enough yarn – dang!):
cherrytowel

Shown with the partial list of other stitches that would make nice towels, and the small bit of a ball band dish cloth.

My first ball band dish cloth. Amazing, I didn’t know what I was missing. I am in serious love with how these things feel. But back to the top of the post. I always wondered what the back side looked like. Why don’t most people show the side I want to see? I really want to see the side you aren’t showing to me. I think there are other people *out there* who want to see too. So here it is, the private side of a ball band dish cloth. (I can only imagine how many weird hits this post is going to get)

private

Meh. But the front side is pretty. I am set to make a gazillion of them, so be forewarned.

Back to life, if you care to follow. I am in the process of making some big changes in my life. Being unbalanced isn’t the best part of me. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE change, but when the change has to do with how I see myself and what that means, it can get icky messy. A little bit too real. Having Buddhist leanings I know that I need to be okay with all parts of myself – public and private, not so icky and icky, good and whatever. I am usually okay with that but I realize other people aren’t quite okay with me being different. That part sucks. And sometimes I wish I wasn’t aware enough to notice.

But then a few heartbeats later I realize that it (whatever the it is) really doesn’t matter all that much. I have a very blessed life, full of friends and family, with an amazing heap of stuff all around me ;-).

Anyway. Enough of the rambling. I am hoping that you are feeling whatever it is that you need to feel this moment. Right now I am choosing happiness and

Peace

The Game – My Mosaic

my mosaic

1. Black-eyed Susan
2. My Turkey Dinner
3. Frank B. Kellogg, U.S. Secretary of State
4. A Better Dayfaded blue
5. Dave Matthews
6. first day of summer – currently iced tea
7. Dalai Lama – DM and Dalai Lama=heaven, but I wasn’t there.
8. lemon bar cupcakelemon curd cake
9. Meetingloving
10. A special stillness of Japan…in NYstillness
11. We are choosing hope over fear.
12. squaresZenKnit
Created with fd’s Flickr Toys.

I saw this on The Purloined Letter.

Here are the rules:
a. Type your answer to each of the questions below into Flickr Search
b. Using only the first page of results, pick an image.
c. Copy and paste each of the URLs for the images into fd’s mosaic maker

The Questions:
1. What is your first name?
2. What is your favorite food?
3. What high school did you go to?
4. What is your favorite color?
5. Who is your celebrity crush?
6. Favorite drink?
7. Dream vacation?
8. Favorite dessert?
9. What you want to be when you grow up?
10. What do you love most in life?
11. One word to describe you.
12. Your flickr name.

This was interesting. Searching using "tags only" brought up better results.
~ Peace

Guess what this means:

Guess what this means:

This is the sign of an afghan in it’s last stages of completion. The weaving in of all the tails of yarn. The best way to do this is to get a whole bunch of DVDs to listen to (remember, your eyes aren’t on the screen) or CDs because it is less distracting. Have the remote handy because you will be jumping up and down to get iced tea refills, taking potty breaks and letting the dog and/or cats in or out. You need to have a pair of very sharp scissors (buried under the stack of ends in this photo), needles and such.

I always like to have a my laminated photo of the Dalai Lama around or in my pocket wherever I go. Looking at it reminds me to be compassionate. Keeps the criticism down and helps me to peaceful and relax while I am doing something as mind numbing as finishing an afghan.

Cats and dogs usually like to help too!

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This one is using most of my stash of blues and greens. The pattern is from 200 Ripple Stitches, by Jan Eaton, using the pattern called warm waves. It is was fun to do and the ripple is very bendy. All increase and decreases – not too holey, but I like to think that it is holy seeing the Dalai Lama was involved. It is about 39 inches across and 52 inches long. I used a repeating pattern of 2 greens, 1 blue, 1 green, 2 blues. There is a spot up on the upper left where I ran out of the medium blue I was using so I had to sub in some darker bright blue. I like to think of it as a cute freckle on a serene face.

Peace!

Goals are good

Finished another child sized blanket for Project Little Lambs. Here it is:

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And a detail shot:

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It still needs to be washed and blocked to make it look nice, but I am going to hold off until I am finished with the (10?) that I want to donate. I have until August, so I think it is going to be very easy to make my goal, even if some will be a larger size.

Here is a shot of my newest. Another knit. It doesn’t look like much yet, but after I get another skein knit the pattern should show better.

cblanket3-2

The yarn, Patons, Look at Me, is super soft. I have 7 skeins and will probably just keep on knitting it until I run out of yarn.

Isn’t it just a lovely day for Mother’s Day? My sister Chaachi and I took my mom out for Mother’s Day brunch at Fabulous Ferns. Good eating.

Now it is time to just kick back and blog, Ravelry, knit. Happy Mother’s Day for all of you who have human and animal babes, or mother/parent some other way (creativity, spirituality, LOVE).

Peace