Catching up

Life.

-sigh-

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Life is always wonderful – every little juicy bit, though sometimes I wish my life was a little less crying kind of juicy.

Perhaps it is because I am in a particularly emotionally fraught time.  I am now in the

I can’t believe I still have my period! Do I still have my period?  Damn, yes I do…or maybe not. ARGH!

time in my life.  I wish there was a switch in my belly button to turn off the baby making parts of my body.  At 48 going on 49 it just doesn’t seem fair to have to worry about it all – especially seeing it has been a part of my life since I was eleven.  Enough is enough!

So for whatever reason, I have been crying a lot and feeling lonely too even though I am surrounded by loving friends and family.  Hmmm, the family part is both loving and crying producing lately.  But feelings aren’t rational and they are valid even if they don’t make sense – I tell myself that a lot lately.

Lately, I have been missing that closeness of being married.  And then I realize that when I was married I still felt alone, and then that thought makes me want to cry even more.  I know everyone goes lonely bits of times in their lives but that makes me sad too – the fact that we are all surrounded by so much love that seemingly can’t get in.  Why? Because.

I don’t worry about money or resources or things.  But I do tend to fuss over time, thoughts and feelings about whether people can feel and accept the love I have for them, and my constant struggle with being understood.

I know I need to let go – so I am doing a lot of Reiki and meditation.  Trying to breathe and settle and be.

Watching a movie and reading helps, but sometimes that also fuels the fire of loneliness.  Most movies and books are about  miss communication or lack of communication, longing, heart break, you know, LIFE.  But one of my biggest beefs about movies and books is the drama of it all, all the withholding of emotions – not communicating true feelings – ACK!

So then I turn to the peaceful meditation of my knitting, or even just getting onto Ravelry and looking at everyone’s beautiful creations, and I start opening up my knitting magazines and books and perusing my stash, making plans.  And usually peace comes back.  I just love all the parts of a project, the planning, the yarn, the process and the finishing.

I have asock-havana-2010ccomplished a few things lately.  Here they are:

This is a modified version of Charlene Schurch’s Ridged Feather from her book, Sensational Knitted Socks. It is my go to pattern because I love the way it fits and I have knit it so many times I don’t have to think it through.  It looks wonderful in striped yarn or variegated.  I have the pattern written up in code in my little sock knitting notebook.

I cast on the mate right away and can hardly wait to finish.  I love the colorway, which is much more beautiful in person.

Next, here is something I finished a while ago, but haven’t shared yet:

I found the pattern for this scarf, Three Sisters Scarves # scarf-minivacationTwo by Monika Steinbauer, on Ravelry.

I found the pattern very easy to do and took off knitting it but then had some second thoughts, first I realized that there was a mistake in the pattern so I ripped back and started over.   Next, I was loving the colorway of this Cherry Tree Hill sock yarn (Cherry Blossoms) but variegated yarns done up in eyelet patterns can either look too busy or the pattern is lost in the yarn.  So I dunked the end that I was knitting and did a quick block on a towel and left it to dry on the top of my radiator – Denise needles connected and all.   I liked it enough to continue and eventually finish, but I still need to do the real blocking and finishing.

If you look at the photo the scarf end at the top is unblocked and the bottom is quick block.

It is almost past scarf season, but I will have it handy for when the snow flies next year.  It will look good with my brown coat and is feminine without being flouncy.

I am also working on another set of dishtowels.  I have 2 dishclothes and one hanging towel completed, and am now on a regular hand towel and hope to have enough for a knitted sponge thing.  I will post photos soon.

Right now I am in the midst of a yarn snarl from hell and am this close to just cutting the yarn, but I don’t have any more of that color.  I may go out and buy some more and even though it won’t be the same dye lot.  It is just a towel set, not a sweater so no big worries there.

And just writing about it makes me want to go out and get some more yarn.  That way I will have enough for a good sized towel, especially if I can unsnarl the soon-to-be-clipped mess!

Thanks for those who have made it all the way down here.  I hope you are finding peace and contentment in your life, and if not all of it, at least your knitting and other crafts.

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A different kind of Holiday season this year

This year I am not in a mad dash to finish a huge pile of projects.  I have been busy with big life changes: a divorce and all that goes with that, getting a full-time job, meeting new people, dealing with illness in my family, friends’ life changes – you know, LIFE.

And usually I would be knitting or crocheting through all of these things, but this time I just didn’t feel the need to do that.  But now that the big life changes have settled it is time to fill moments with knitting and crafting again.

Lately I have been knitting more – simple things like dishcloths.  I finished this set for a friend:
wally112009Although it is not a colorway that I would have chosen, I think it turned out pretty nice.  The set is based on the Knit Nutt’s – The Squidge Cloth. Done up as dishcloths, a hand towel and then used Nancy’s hanging towel and just subbed in the stitch pattern for the whole towel. There was also a Four-corners dishcloth added to the set that I had knit earlier that wasn’t in the photo. If you look really carefully there is also a Tribble (tawashi/sponge thing) there in the photo too.

Now that my friend has moved to a new place with new kitchen colors we have realized that something with a little more POW! would be nice. Perhaps a blue set? So that is on my “Something to do” list, maybe for Christmas or a “just because” type of gift.

Back to Holiday gift-giving. I am toying with the idea of either buying those spice mix sets one sees at every craft fair lately, or perhaps make some of my own and pack them up in some nice jars. I think everyone would appreciate a nice brownie, cake or goodie/snack mix around for those times when you feel like having something good to eat but haven’t been out shopping lately. So now I am in the hunt mode to find either one recipe that I can make in mass quantities or really customize it to the individual giftee.

Wish me luck, and if you have any suggestions or ideas….

Peace

Rebirth / Birthday

I had a birthday on the 28th of September. Yeah me!

Although I am only 48 – it was still an important one.  And now I am wondering, why do we make a big deal about the 10s?  Hmmmm, anyway, I celebrated for about 3 days.  2 days before and then on the actual day.

On the 26th I celebrated with some Reiki pals.  I was a part of a Reiki healing share where we get together and do group healing and eat (of course).  Nice group of people and especially nice was getting to celebrate with my “twin” Mary.  We share the same birth month and day, except she is only 47 this year.  Her girls gave me a very nice card, and a special birthday cupcake – sweet!

No time to knit because I had to scoot over to a new friend’s place to start the 2nd celebration.  Here are some photos from that part:

A special birthday cake for ZenKnit (Susan)

A special birthday cake for ZenKnit (Susan)

Happy but boy do I look tired!

Happy but boy do I look tired!

Sweet!

I guess I am starting to look my age.  But that is very okay.  It is very nice to be what you are.  A nice older woman *grin*.  I can’t really claim to be middle-aged unless I am planning on living to 96. That is a bit of a stretch.  But honestly, every day is a great day.

On my actual birthday I went to work and then had dinner at my mom and dad’s place.  We have a tradition where mom makes our favorite meal.  Mine is swiss steak and vegetables and for dessert, confetti angel cake and ice cream – sweet!

But back to days and time… I have been having a lot of odd dreams about the end of things.  The funny thing is in the latest dream, the sun disappeared and I thought that it would be important to gather up all of my knitting (especially socks) and sock yarn because it was going to be very cold and I didn’t know if I would be back at my home – there was something about trying to decide if I would go to live with my twin Mary (great gardener) or head out for a trek to other places to seek out comfort and strength (newer friend).

And then I woke up.  Although it was kind of a weird dream, it was quite nice in that:

  • I felt safe
  • I had plans
  • There was knitting!

Peace!

I’ve lost that loving feeling

I have been unfaithful to my knitting. Very unfaithful. I have taken up with my long time love of books. I think it began when I was somewhat forced to go through all of the books in my house in order to decide which were mine, and which are my husband’s. It could also be that I was just kind of bored with knitting – tired of the same old dishcloth, really kind of burnt out with the niceness of it all. I needed some bad boy energy, something more sexy, you know?

So I am reading SciFi again. A tasty 2-book series from Dan Simmons, Ilium and Olympos.

I did spend some time on Ravelry trying to get the love back — looking at lacy shawls, looking at sexy colors and even doing a few rows on the toe of a sock that was begun back in March of 2008(!), and I started a new dishcloth. But there wasn’t enough umph in those feeble attempts to really hook me. So I am back reading, journaling (personal stuff that’s not online), moving boxes of clothes and stuff back and forth within my too crowded house, and trying to figure out a way to keep myself out of trouble. The bottom-line is that I am bored with all of these activities, but not as bored as with the knitting.

Maybe it is just cabin fever, not having enough business, experiencing a break from my corporate job and……

Sigh.

But Spring is coming, the sun has been out, I had a great play date with my dogboy Spencer, and a chance to kick back with friends, meet some new people, catch up on email and some further web site stuff. And today a call from work! I will be back to my corporate job for at least a few weeks. That for sure will keep me out of trouble!

Peace

A Birthday of Sorts

Today at 6:00ish a.m. I birthed my new website, SusanAguirre.com. It isn’t complete by a long shot, but I do have most of my Reiki information there. My Tarot for Transformation pages will probably be done today, as well as my Zen Life section (links to here and HealingBeadwork.com websites too). Edited 12/3/2016 – I no longer have those websites.

Why the changes?… I am in the midst of the beginnings of a single life again. Yeah me! I actually appreciate change and this is a good thing for me. New life, new website.

Please visit me there and let me know what you think: My main page is pretty plain, should I re-do? Do I need to have visual links vs. the hidden ones? Are the colors appealing? etc.

Peace

Merry Dishmas!

Merry Dishmas! Happy Handtowelica! Joyous Hope Yulelikethisgift!

I finished sewing the buttons on the hanging kitchen/hand towels for the kitchen sets I finished for gift giving.  Here are two photos of them all:

 

I wish you could see all the buttons.  Sewing on buttons is such picky work, but I was happily surprised that it didn’t take long to do that. I wish I liked the next part, which is wrapping. I kind of stink at wrapping things too.

I hope all your projects are done in time, or at least done enough that you can give an IOU without the giftee having to wait long for the finished project(s).

Stay warm and safe and I will see you here next year!

Peace

time – fast and slow

I know I haven’t posted much lately.  I have been so busy with this new job, still getting used to keeping regular hours and I don’t seem to have much time to do anything else but work, eat, sleep and get ready for the next day.  But I have managed to cram in a few birthday celebrations (for me and friends) and that was great!  Getting closer to being a crone (it’s a good thing).  I am officially 47 even though I have been telling people for a long time that I am 47 already. But enough of that – let me show you some projects!

Here is what I have been able to do since I last checked in:

Pretty impressive if I do say so myself. I have also finished a few bits to some already shared sets, so here they are complete:


Here are more details:
2 red, white, blue and cream dishcloths in the ballband pattern as written with 13 repeats. I am doing a hand towel using a modified KBB Kitchen Hanging Hand Towel. Using the pattern’s CO number, did the ballband pattern (modified) to use up all of the 59 stitches, knit those for 3 repeats, then I will continue using the variegated yarn to knit up the length using the basket weave 2 pattern from the book 365 stitch a day calendar. I will use the decrease and tab instructions as written from the KBB Kitchen Hanging Hand Towel. I have already done the matching tribble sponge.

The Blue, White and Yellow set is one squidge cloth (upper), a Christmas Cloth Pattern (lower) and a hanging towel using that same pattern. I still need to do a tribble/sponge for the set to be complete.

The white, yellow, violet and blue set are all done using the stitch pattern called corded ribbing, which makes up the stitch pattern in the blissfull moss rib used as written for the 2 dishcloths. I used the pattern in a matching hanging towel. I also have a matching tribble sponge here that completes this set.

For the Red and White set I completed the hand towel, which is a modified KBB Kitchen Hanging Hand Towel. What I did is use the CO number, did the ballband pattern (modified) to use up all of the 59 stitches, knit those for 3 repeats, then using those 59 stitches, switched to the basket weave 2 pattern from the book 365 stitch a day calendar. Then used the decrease and tab instructions as written from the KBB Kitchen Hanging Hand Towel. The set is complete with a red and white tribble sponge too.

I don’t think I covered everything yet, but I need to get ready for bed for another day. I hope you are all happy and healthy and making most of the time you have.

Peace